In Beauty May I Walk – Leaps Are Optional
Look at every path closely and deliberately, then ask ourselves this crucial question: Does this path have a heart? If it does, then the path is good. If it doesn’t, it is of no use.
– Carlos Castaneda
Here is the cast for this post, for without each one this awareness would not have been birthed:
Shakti-Samtosha (Peace-Contentment) yoga practice
Carl, representing Health and Wellness coaching
Jan, who is unraveling the grief around the death of her beloved husband after many years of illness
Ron, who is facing an activation of the cancer that he has been living with for the past year
Adam, who is caught in his own world of mental illness, but does not know it
Lea and her personal story on returning to a state of ease
Unexpected income – who shall henceforth be named “Wealth”
Now that the stage is set, the story can be told. Have you been told that in order to succeed, or get unstuck you need to leap off of the cliff, precipice or ledge and trust that you will fly? Well I have, and in fact guided others in this free flight as well. In fact I have done it many times in my life – leaping, flying, and sometimes falling on my face – with great lessons to be learned. The question is – are you leaping away or towards yourself?
What if it is true that all the events in our life are personally orchestrated by us in order to come “home” …and without each event, each person, each experience we would not understand why we are here, and certainly wouldn’t be able to make those choices that serve our highest well being, and that of everyone and everything we touch.
This awareness may not help when we are in the midst of unbearable grief, full on fear for our lives, intense worry about financial well being, distorted thinking and a feeling of utter abandonment, or uncertainty about what our next step will be.
Yet, it is here in this rich territory of choice and head-on life that we find that it may not be as dramatic as jumping off of a cliff, but instead, like a powerful dream of mine several years ago. A realization that as you are standing on the edge trying to think your way down to “safety” or the next leap – a path suddenly appears as you turn your head to look at what is around you. A path that is uniquely yours and leads in an easeful and clear (although sometimes not seeming to) way to your next destination. All you have to do is listen, feel, and start walking…
So, here is the story. There is an older woman that has done many things in her life that she feels good about. She has given birth to and nurtured 3 boys into manhood; spent many, many years in the healing professions bringing people into embodiment through touch, breath, energy, listening, guiding, and love; has created 3 businesses on her own and enjoyed the creative process of each one; spent a total of 21 years in living relationships with men who taught her a great deal; owned houses; taught yoga; traveled to far away places, had adventures, and learned from shamans and healers; called dolphins to her in the wilds of the ocean; continues to act on her passion for writing; and adores the creative and uninhibited joy of dance and art.
This woman feels she is now at a crossroads – a pivotal point. Many options and possibilities are open to her. Does she start another business in health and wellness coaching, join a community of evolutionary visionaries, write her book, or stay where she is which is out-of-alignment with who she knows she is and what she has to bring?
In this only two day journey, the beginning is marked by a yoga practice focused on peace and contentment. A yoga practice that she has put on the shelf for a period of time. Falling into her body, breath, and surrendering her tight and contracted body she cries. The waking up has begun.
She receives an e-mail from one of her readers, Jan, that shares the fragile place she finds herself in the aftermath of her husbands death, and the knowing that she did everything she could to help him. The reader reports that she can hardly find her way to reach out to what she may need at this time. This honesty touches this woman reminding her that everyone is doing the best they can with what they have – including her, and that sometimes it is not right timing to reach out – that each person’s journey can only be chosen by them.
This is emphasized even more by her brother Rons quest for health and life in his journey with cancer, having to deal with some very difficult treatment choices – and her son Adams mental illness that has him locked within his own mind unable to accept the fact, or even be aware, that he needs loving assistance to come back to life – his life.
Waves of energy hit her and clarity begins to filter through. There doesn’t have to be a leap, free fall, or soaring as the case may be. It isn’t fear or uncertainty that make the decision not to pursue the health and wellness coaching with the large training company. An e-mail is written to Carl, the director of marketing. She now knows that it is alignment with beauty, peace, essential nature, and ease that has been calling for days now – not the path to growing yet another business, no matter how qualified she is.
On the second day of this awakening a friend Lea (www.ReplenishYourSoul.com) writes of her journey back towards ease in her life, having seen the effects of struggle and pushing patterns in body, mind and relationship over this last year. Just a gentle walk to another location inside that says here – here is where you are to be. Trust and honor what you know.
Guidance is coming in many forms now as the waking up – speeds up. A letter arrives in the P.O. box which says in the window – Pay To The Order Of – with her name on it. Unexpected income. Flow of Wealth. The message – honor your path and the flow returns.
Not making a choice because it might be “good for her to take yet another leap” – but acknowledging and honoring the place inside that says TRUST – it will be shown to you. There are many ways to return to and know your path. Listen in to your bodies messages. Just turn your head and start walking. Leaps are sometimes necessary, but always optional…
Pursue some path, however narrow and crooked, in which you can walk with love and reverence.
– Henry David Thoreau
P.S The woman is me. Deep gratitude to the cast!
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